| | well...here it is. If you dont like it let me now. im going to post it in the next entry as friends only if i can figure it out...if you want to read it and dont have a jounral let me know. Otherwise, post what you think of it and if you dont understand it...its ok, ill try to explain it to you if you want | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Subject: | last night | | Time: | 10:03 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/thinking.gif) contemplative |
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| | there was a brief glimpse of hope for me last night...I didnt fall asleep thinking about it until 4 this morning...When i did fall asleep, i had the best dream ive had in a really long time. Ill try to describe it to you, and i might edit this a little more if i find the right adjectives. The sun beated down on my body, warming it with every step I took. A gentle breeze came from the passive ocean, a light scent of sea air nipping at my nose. my bare feet sinking into the cool beach sand like the roots of a native palm tree, the sand coursing through my toes, sending prickling senses to my brain. I run my hand through my hair, and pinch myself to see if im dreaming to no avail, proving my experience is reality. I dont care about the rationality of it all, jsut the feeling, the harmony of this place. I stroll up the beach, taking in as much of the breathtaking scenery as i can, and find myself at the doorstep of a small hut. I knock, but no one answers. A small man creeps from around the corner, i cannot see his face...he wears soft yellow clothing made from material only likened to a burlap sack. All i could see of his face was his brilliant blue eyes, the depth of these eyes could match the deepest part of the atlantic. He introduced himself as Dr. Eckleburg, and shook my hand ever so slightly. i heard soft movement behind me. I turn, and nothing is there, and the hut and man are also gone. I feel a graceful touch drape around my shoulders and move to my base of my neck. I turn to face this person, and find the same blurred image of a face, but i cannot stop looking into it, This new power of attraction surged through my eyes and into my mind. I knew that she was the one. The one I was looking for. This is where i woke up... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | the aps are finally over...i actually felt the best about the phyics ap...i couldnt believe it....anyway, ive got write a lit paper tonight. I finaly realized what i should write about. I can relate to Hamlet's theme of contemplation versus action. Its true...i think a lot, but no action....not too much happening though, my father ut on the water pump and has my truck ready to go. I was suprised, i was going to take care of everything when i got home. One less thing for me to do. Now i wish that gas wasnt so much, maybe i should run my car for a little longer...i finally realized taht this is the last week of classes, and i wont be here in four weeks or so...god, as much as i dont like it, im going to miss this place and the people here. Well, some more than others. I probably wont get to see anybody over the summer either, unless they come up to see me....I have to work all summer to pay for my truck and stuff. Its going to be a sad day when we graduate... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Van Helsing was pretty good....it felt good to actually be with friends this time, and not be blown off...anyway...my ap test are almost over...one mroe left..physics b...and i have almost no finals!! two presentations and a regular math test....thank god. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | time for a stressful week....3 AP's and physics class...time to shoot myself...anyway, i got a 3 on my calc practice exam (also our final, and i got a 75...fuck, how can i be so stupid) and i got a 5 on the stats final (the final exam also, worth 120 points) if only i could take grade points from stats and put them into calc.... ive got the stats AP this afternoon, calc tomrrow morning, and lit thursday morning...im going to be dead within the next couple days, god help me...if the Ap's dont kill me, Bobby K will | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | oh boy...the first parts of my calc and stats finals...wish me luck, im going to need it. well..maybe not for stats, i wish that was first, get my confidence in myself back up before i die in farrell's room | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Post a memory you have of me in a comment.
Then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| once again...i ponder my value as a human being, sit in my room and stare at the ceiling, not because of boredom, but with a deeper vision to see through this world into the next, and wish that sometimes the dream world was more real than this one.
i hate being the first one to be left behind for someone else, even when we made plans way before then..but im used to it... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | vacation wasnt too bad...i bought a new truck...its a glorious bright shade of red. Its a 97 dodge dakota sport...oops, where'd all my money go? ha ha....i had my mason stuff thursday night, that was fun. Im glad i got into it. Friday I took my grnadparents to Ellsworth for my grandfather's doctor's appointment... Otherwise, not oo much, trying to brace myself for AP testing and then finals....sunday night, i got back here, and realized all i wanted to do was jsut lay down, go to sleep, and never wake up. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:24 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) uncomfortable |
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| | those little creatures on each of my shoulders are acting up again. I havent slept much for the last few days, they just wont shut up....you should've done this, should've said that...im tired of reliving the past, but its so hard when you look forward and trip on your shoelaces | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | another wednesday night....not much for homework, but nobody is really around to hang out with. i got my financial aid packet the otehr day. its not looking that bad, i might actually be able to afford college......in all honesty, im really going to miss this place, not the admins, but on a whole...there are a lot of great memories here. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | today was great. day off...sleep till eleven, watch movies...ahh, the life. I spent some of my evening rediscvoering AC/DC. It was worth it, i forgot how much i really like their music. If you havent heard them, let me know, ill send you some, it not deeply inspirational or anything, and you might not like them, but it might be worth it. Anyway, i think we should have an eighties dance, ill DJ. Nobody will like it, but ill have fun doing it. Hopefully it wouldnt turn out like last years semi formal, wow was that a pisser. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| i finally found a use for the pleasure reading of "Great Expectations". In "The light of the Moon", Dean Koontz, one of my favorite authors, he describes a scene where a woman needs to find something for this autistic man to do to occupy himself while she leaves for a minute, so she hands him a copy of "Great Expectations", of which he is very fond. Wow, the first perosn to enjoy "Great Expectations"
On the lighter side, GO DOOR DUMPING, its awesome.
ahem...dumping not literally for all you sick perverted ash wholes out there | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Rock you like a Hurricane - Scorpions | | Time: | 08:19 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) mellow |
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| | i know, i know....its been a while....i have been quite busy....damn physics test every time you turn around..why cant we just move on to something new. I guess we are friday, well, tomrrow, but still, oh well, at least its a chnace for those that are behind to catch up. The scholarships are piling up now, but i havent heard from any...i probably wont get any anyway. Only for an exception of one person who I am very happy for, i see that a lot of people are trying to hook up with all of these people from outside the school....that saddens me, because I know what great guys we have here, but hey, whatever turns your crank, dont let me stop you. I was also talking to a good friend the other day who reminded me of what i was liked for, my sense of sarcasm. Ill see if i can find it for this year, but my room's a mess...im slowly losing my grip on my identity...ill see if i can get back to how i was, shouldnt be too hard. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | School of Rock by School of Rock | | Time: | 09:01 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/energetic.gif) energetic |
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| | back to school...what to do...homework!! ha ha.... i went shopping yesterday. I got some nice new clothes, and they're actually in color..amazing. well, ive got to get used to it sometime, ill be wearing a uniform next year anyway, either khaki or my dress whites...nice. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 06:35 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/shock.gif) distressed |
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| | i spent most of my day today working on writing math problems with pete....oh man i have so much to do tonight.....i didnt even get accomlished what i wanted to, the opportunity never came up... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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